I’ve been extremely busy the last few weeks with the holidays, work, surprise birthday parties, events and daily life that I hadn’t had a moment to sit down and post until now.
I’m feeling particularly burnt out and am REALLY looking forward to taking some time off of work to recharge and get that positive energy flowing once again!
Maybe its like this for most, but I get pretty emotional around the holidays and today was no exception. I was very chipper in the morning, but as the day progressed my emotions took a turn. I have to say, I’ve come a really long way the last couple of years, particularly with my self-esteem. My confidence level skyrocketed and my skin toughened, but lately I’ve been feeling differently…
I’ve been pretty hard on myself. I feel inadequate and undeserving. I know I’m a hard worker and I have a good heart, but there has been this nagging voice in my head and I’m not really sure why. I believe part of it is that I’m not quite where I want to be and the funny part is that I have NO IDEA where that is. I just know that I’m not there.
After a vent session with my mother, I’ve realized that I have a lot to be grateful for and that despite my feelings of unworthiness I HAVE worked really hard and experienced quite a few achievements this year.
2013, you were a tough cookie to chew, but I made it through.
I suppose in the end I’m better & stronger for it.
A couple of highlights from 2013 that make me smile:
I feel my heart starting to open up as I share these moments and I already feel a smile brewing upon my face.
For me, 2014 is all about cleansing, soul searching & making moves.
I hope you are all having a beautiful holiday!
“Whatever problem of your past will be turned around to the promise of your future! It wasn’t a set back but a set up”